by Kerry Heath © '95
Several years ago, I was blessed ( although it
didn't feel like a blessing at the time) by a spontaneous awakening of
Life Force within me. Some call this energy by many names - Prana, Chi,
Manna, Shakti, the Holy Spirit, the list goes on.......I choose to relate
to this energy as Life Force or Divine Will. The initial awakening happened
so out of the blue I wasn't sure what was happening to me. I was watching
a Shamanic Ritual on a TV program and the combination of the sound, movement
and feeling of what I saw, triggered within me a response so deep, so profound,
it sparked me on a journey of discovery that is still unfolding within
my life today...
Suddenly I was on the floor in the grip of a powerful
energy. My body simply had a mind of its own, moving in ways that reminded
me of primal rituals, totally ecstatic, sometimes erotic. My breathing
patterns changed and I was making sounds that took over and became rhythmic
chants and then erupted into animal noises and growling. I was going into
yoga asanas and mudras with a grace and power all 'it's' own, then bursting
into a wild dance feeling the power of the Earth rising up through my feet.
I felt such power, almost as if the Planet and I were One.
The experience was very cathartic, many deeply
held emotions were released, so much was happening that I had no answers
for, yet I knew suddenly, one thing without a doubt, and that is the body
has an undeniable wisdom hidden within, the body 'knows' what it needs
to do in order to free itself. Both the Body and the Will need to
be given the freedom they need now in order for us to heal and to come
once more into alignment with our free, innocent, alive, totally spontaneous
and authentic selves!
Our logical minds have been in control for a long
time, now it's time to let go and lose some of this control that has been
holding us in rigid form, beliefs and habit patterns - not allowing us
to be free.